Hello. This is my first post. I just finished setting up the zonelets scripts. Big shoutouts to zonelets, thank you for your service.
Recently I've been feeling terribly demotivated. I've lost the passion to create. I feel I am not good enough, that I don't have the skills to externalize the grandiose movies in my head. Videogames are zapping my energy. I procrastinate. Everything is terrible.
Feeling stuck I called out for help. Next week I will be going for the first time to a personal coach. If I am correct, this is a person that specializes in motivation and self imposed goals. I am looking up to that, I hope that can help me.
I don't want to spend any more time in inactivity. Inactivity has been the greatest demon in my life. I went to animation college for the express purpose of making a reality the stories and characters I have in my head. The scenes that play out when I play music. No more. I can't allow this any further.
Also playing a big part in my change is my script-writer-podcaster step-mother. She has a big head for culture, and when I told her my problem, her solution was to build me an itinerary for me to get some culture in my big dumb head. I will be visiting museums every week, and sketching and analyzing classic pieces of art. GaudÃ, Picasso, Romanic art, Borroco art, whatever. This way, she says, I can start getting inspiration from the giants that inspired the greatest artists of today.
I am scared. I am scared I will fumble and drop this oportunity. One day I will play too many videogames, I won't have a good sleep, and I will skip a museum visit. And I will feel demotivated. And that demotivation will snowball in inactivity again.
Hopefully that doesn't happen.